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Four months after President Donald Trump’s name reportedly appeared over a million times in long-hidden files related to his former friend, convicted sexual predator Jeffrey Epstein, and weeks after one analysis warned that his foreign aid cuts will likely kill 9 million people by the end of the decade, the president announced Wednesday that he’d identified the politician who is “probably” the worst person to ever run for public office. In the Oval Office, Trump declared Democratic US Senate candidate Graham Platner, whom Maine primary voters chose to run in the general election by more than a 52% margin, a “thug” and a “cheap, no-good person,” adding that he is “worse than any human being that’s ever run for office, probably.” “Nobody’s ever had a record like that… This guy’s got a rap sheet, I’ve never seen anything like it,” said the president as he lied about Platner, who has no criminal record. Trump, meanwhile, was convicted of 34 felony counts of falsifying business records in 2024. A New York judge also ordered Trump to pay a $450 million civil penalty over financial fraud that year, and in 2023, a jury found him liable for sexually abusing and defaming columnist E. Jean Carroll. More than two dozen women have accused the president of sexual misconduct. Trump on Platner: “I watched that thug that’s up in Maine. He’s a thug. And they’re trying to make excuses for him. I mean, he’s worse than any human being that’s ever run for office probably…And you’ll have Schumer, he’ll go crazy over this or that or Epstein…He’s a thug.” pic.twitter.com/I9k1MXZOUD — The Bulwark (@BulwarkOnline) June 10, 2026 Trump, who has openly bragged about sexually assaulting women and reportedly committed adultery numerous times during his three marriages, was likely referring to controversies that made headlines after Platner, a combat veteran and oyster farmer, launched his campaign last year with a focus on taxing billionaires, expanding Medicare to the entire population, and ending US wars. During his two terms in office, Trump has been rebuked for his allegiance to corporate interests, giving massive tax breaks to billionaires and powerful industries, undermining labor protections, launching wars of choice overseas, attacking public education, and gutting public health and environmental protection efforts. Recently, a former campaign staffer told news outlets that Platner’s wife had confided in her about messages Platner sent to other women early in their marriage. The candidate’s former girlfriend, a right-wing operative, also accused him of being physically aggressive during their relationship. Earlier controversies centered on a tattoo that critics said resembled a Nazi symbol and posts he wrote on Reddit in the years after his military service. Despite the months of criticism and news stories regarding Platner’s past, with 91% of votes reported as of Wednesday afternoon, he won the support of more than 71% of Democratic primary voters, with many saying they connected with his strong focus on issues affecting working people and that he had taken accountability for his previous actions. While attacking Platner on Wednesday, Trump brought up the Epstein scandal, saying Democratic lawmakers “go crazy” over his association with the financier, who died in prison while awaiting a trial on sex-trafficking minors and who was convicted in 2008 of soliciting prostitution with a minor. As Trump hurled insults at Platner, also calling him “an outright pig,” the Democratic candidate released an ad taking aim at “the Epstein class,” saying that “the only thing the DC establishment can agree on is a love of Jeffrey Epstein—and a hatred of me.” Earlier, the Democratic candidate and so-called “thug” posted a video on social media of a volunteer activity he was taking part in on the morning after the election in Bar Harbor. “This morning, I’m doing very important things, which is riding on the bike bus,” said Platner, evidently taking time off from being what Trump has also referred to as a “major sleaze bag.” “The community gets together and helps ride with all of the kids who want to ride their bikes to school, and so it’s safe and fun,” he explained. Good morning, Maine! Hitting the trail. pic.twitter.com/y2xcbe1Hxi — Graham Platner for Senate (@grahamformaine) June 10, 2026 “Honestly, it’s exactly the thing that we need a lot more of in this country,” said Platner, “which is people coming together and realizing that their neighbors are good people, and everybody just wants to help each other out. It’s the message we need to take into our politics, which is why we won last night.” From Common Dreams via This RSS Feed.
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A federal lawsuit filed Wednesday in the Middle District of Florida by a Fort Myers resident wrongfully arrested nearly two years ago highlights the risks of police agencies relying on facial recognition tools. “This case is about what happens when police let an error-prone artificial intelligence (AI) system stand in for an investigation,” explains the complaint, filed by attorneys with the state and national ACLU as well as the firm Hoguet Newman Regal & Kenney. “A facial recognition algorithm flagged Robert Dillon as the man who tried to lure or entice a child under 12 years old at a Jacksonville Beach McDonald’s. It was wrong.” The 52-year-old “lives more than 300 miles from” and “had never set foot in Jacksonville Beach,” the complaint continues. “But rather than test the machine’s answer against the evidence that would have cleared him, the officers built a case to confirm it. Mr. Dillon was arrested and prosecuted for one of the most stigmatizing crimes a person can face.” Dillon—one of at least 15 people wrongfully arrested in the United States due to police reliance on incorrect facial recognition results—is suing the city of Jacksonville Beach as well as law enforcement officers from the Jacksonville Beach Police Department, Jacksonville Sheriff’s Office (JSO), and Pinellas County Sheriff’s Office. Reporting on the case Wednesday, Wired noted that while the Pinellas agency did not respond to a request for comment, a JSO spokesperson simply said that “due to pending litigation, we would be unable to comment further on the incident.” The actual suspect allegedly approached a girl at the McDonald’s shortly before midnight on November 2, 2023. The following month, Dillon was flagged as a possible match by the Face Analysis Comparison and Examination System (FACES)—which “has been operated by the Pinellas County Sheriff’s Office since 2001, making it one of the oldest police face-recognition systems in the country,” according to Wired. “At its peak in 2021, its tens of millions of Florida mug shots and driver’s license photos were accessible to more than 260 agencies.” After denying any involvement in the case in December, Dillon was arrested at his home in front of his wife the next August, “held overnight in jail, forced to borrow money and pledge the title to his truck to post bond, subjected to months of criminal prosecution, and publicly branded with a mugshot that remains accessible online, long after the charges were dropped,” the complaint states. “Community members still approach him in public to ask about the case. He no longer feels comfortable being friendly to children.” “He had no connection to the McDonald’s, to the child who was targeted, or to anyone involved in the crime. He became a suspect for one reason: a facial recognition algorithm included him in a list of possible matches to a suspect captured on grainy surveillance footage at the restaurant,” the document emphasizes. “The investigating officer treated that algorithmic output as a near-certain identification, omitted critical exculpatory evidence from his arrest warrant application, and failed to pursue routine investigative steps that would have immediately excluded Mr. Dillon as a suspect.” “The arrest warrant that deprived Mr. Dillon of his liberty was the product of a cascade of investigative failures by the lead investigator, Jacksonville Beach Police Department officer (now corporal) Scott O’Connell,” according to the filing. Among them was the officer’s “complete failure to consider that the suspect was alleged to have been a ‘regular’ customer.” The complaint also notes that “O’Connell is an officer with a documented history of volatility and poor judgment, having previously been terminated from the St. Johns County Sheriff’s Office for threatening to ‘blow up’ the agency, later reinstated, then arrested for domestic battery before resigning under the weight of those charges. Jacksonville Beach PD hired him anyway, assigned him as lead investigator on a sensitive child-luring case, and later promoted him to corporal after his investigation resulted in the wrongful arrest and prosecution of an innocent man.” Dillon said in a Wednesday statement that “the night I spent in jail after they arrested me for a crime I did not commit still haunts me to this day. I will never get over how terrified and worried I was, wondering if I’d ever go home to my wife and daughter again.” “Over a year later, I’m still picking up the pieces of my life, all because the police relied on this dangerous technology instead of doing their jobs and actually investigating,” Dillon added. “Florida police must implement safeguards and ensure this never happens to anyone else, because until they do, nobody is safe.” Nate Freed Wessler, deputy director of the ACLU’s Speech, Privacy, and Technology Project, stressed that “no one should lose their freedom or be scared to leave their house because an algorithm got it wrong.” “These Florida police departments owe it to Mr. Dillon to make amends and to take serious steps to make sure this doesn’t happen to anyone else,” he argued. “Police across the country are on notice: Unreliable face recognition technology is hurting people, and we will keep fighting to hold them accountable for these abuses.” The ACLU has previously sounded the alarm over other cases, including those of Robert Williams, a Black man wrongfully arrested in 2020 after software owned by Michigan State Police misidentified him as a shoplifting suspect, and Randal Reid, who spent nearly a week in jail in 2022 after he was falsely identified as a luxury purse thief by Louisiana authorities. The legal group on Wednesday also pointed to the reported role of FACES in the 2025 wrongful arrest of New Smyrna Beach resident Beau Burgess, as well as another case involving the Jacksonville Sheriff’s Office: Jalil Richardson told Action News Jax earlier this month that after being misidentified as a vehicle thief, he “sat in there for over 50 days, in the most worst jail ever.” “There was no proper investigation done… to even reach out to me or to see if I was even in Florida,” said Richardson, whose charges were dropped after he provided time sheets showing that he was at work in North Carolina when the vehicle was stolen. In his case, JSO provided a lengthy statement, saying in part that “facial recognition software is just one tool in a large toolbox for investigators,” and “calling the arrest the result ‘police AI misidentification’ is a catchy headline but does not provide accurate context,” including that “the victim chose Mr. Richardson out of a photographic lineup to include other potential suspects.” Nicholas Warren, staff attorney at the ACLU of Florida, said Wednesday that “one wrongful arrest is one too many.” “Florida’s growing reliance on facial recognition technology threatens us all,” he warned. “We must stop this dangerous pattern before it traps more innocent people. No one should have their freedom taken away because the police rely on faulty technology.” From Common Dreams via This RSS Feed.
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Musica Agorà: un ascolto attento ai suoni del mondo Musica Agorà è una comunità che ha come unico scopo la condivisione musicale in tutte le sue forme.
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Hollywood actor Gwyneth Paltrow has become the face of a luxury real estate development in Israel, defying a global boycott movement against the country in response to its genocide in Gaza. Paltrow drew fierce criticism on Wednesday after appearing in an ad for 51 Park, a 51-storey development in the coastal city of Herzliya, just north of Tel Aviv, where units reportedly sell for up to $10m (£7.4m). The ad campaign was commissioned by luxury developer Aviv by Melisron and created by the Israeli agency Why Worry. “Imagine advertising luxury villas in Nazi Germany during the Holocaust,” user Ounka wrote on X. “That’s the level of tone-deaf we’re witnessing.” In the one-minute ad, filmed in New York, Paltrow wakes up in a swanky apartment and complains in a voice-over: “Who decided mornings should be so early? Even my coffee needs a coffee.” She then goes jogging in Central Park and says, “Waking up for a morning run can be brutal, but it’s a price I’m willing to pay. Because once I hit the park, pure energy takes over.” Later, she says to camera: “There’s a reason why the world’s most iconic buildings are by a park,” as she walks to a car and asks to be taken to 51 Park. When the driver asks if she means in New York, she replies: “No. Herzliya, Israel.” From Novara Media via This RSS Feed.
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It’s always sunny in philly communist memes.
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sopuli.xyz
Artist: Katagiri Hachigou | pixiv | twitter | danbooru
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lemmy.ml
Goldkarpfen is the anarchistic p2p network sandbox
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lemmy.world
Cryptagion is a misogynist who argues against consent and thinks it’s great to threaten rape and sexual harassment, lie, suppress women’s speech,&use fascism to control others and what they say instead of discourse and democracy. Coward.
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Because the GOP likes to run Republicans as Democrats, I absolutely judge a book by its cover. He has a history of controversy aside from the Nazi tattoo. If Platner wins, I wanna revisit this comment in a few years to see if another Fetterman was born.
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It’s easier with the peaches and mangoes because they take some time to ripen and wont all ripen at once. The peaches are “tree ripe” ie hard as a rock when I get them and it takes a bit for them to get soft so I have plenty of time to eat a bunch as is and bake with others. I might try canning some this year, mostly to save for more matcha lattes
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Finally, some good fucking ~~food~~ statistics Way too many articles nowadays that assert that “over half of Americans blah blah blah” and then provide no additional numbers.
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In terms of gender self-care? I used to dye my hair to help feel comfortable with my gender. Having nice hair always felt good and euphoric. Also making accessories and modifying clothes. I have a pair of trousers that I would paint kinda in a tattoo style. Would be nice to add more and wear it out much more often. Just need to make it fit me again.
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Woooo! You’re a goddess, thank you so much <3
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A community in the same spirit of r/ErgoMechKeyboards/
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Oi mate you got a loisance for that willy?
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b u g l o r e https://www.tumblr.com/blog/sceloporus-verycool
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They remind me of Kei cars in Japan. Kind of the same principle. More than a golf cart, less than a car.
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Zionism is a political ideology of fascistic ethno-nationalism that cloaks itself in Judaism and historical trauma which is cynically used to justify its violence. Israel is a genocidal settler-colony state that functions as the western imperialists rabid dog that terrorizes the world.
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Congresswoman McBride // House.gov Erin In The Morning is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a subscriber. Yesterday, Congresswoman Nancy Mace, one of the most prominent anti-trans voices in Congress, ran for the Republican nomination for governor of South Carolina—and finished in fifth place. Mace staked her political career on anti-trans activism, pushing amendment after amendment targeting transgender people during her tenure and most infamously championing the ban on Congresswoman Sarah McBride, the first openly transgender member of Congress, from using women’s restrooms in the Capitol. Now, in what trans communities online were quick to note as a familiar number—anti-trans activist and swimmer Riley Gaines also famously tied for fifth place with Lia Thomas—Mace’s political career is effectively over. She gave up her congressional seat to run for governor and cannot return. As a result, at the Equality PAC’s National Pride Gala last night, McBride took the stage as the results rolled in, referred to Mace as “Congress’s top bathroom sheriff,” noted that she was in “a respectful fifth place,” and wishing Mace a “Happy Pride.” “Today is a big day because today is the South Carolina Republican gubernatorial primary,” started McBride, continuing, "And for those of you who aren’t aware, my colleague—and Congress’s top bathroom sheriff—Nancy Mace, is on the ballot. And while not all of the votes have been counted yet, she is in a respectful fifth place. I don’t like punching down, and I believe in the politics of grace. So all I will say is: Happy Pride, Nancy,” to which she received a standing ovation. See the video here, curtesy of Advocate reporter Christopher Wiggins: The loss is significant. Mace was not merely anti-trans—she made targeting transgender people the defining project of her congressional career. She championed the ban on McBride and all transgender people from using restrooms in the Capitol, then escalated with a sweeping federal bathroom ban bill that would have applied to every federal building in the country, including major airports like Dulles and Reagan—that bill did not pass. She called trans protesters a slur while wandering the halls of the Senate with a bullhorn, having confused which building the protesters were in. She and Lauren Boebert confronted a woman in a Capitol bathroom they suspected was transgender—she was cisgender. Her entire webpage is filled with anti-trans activism and bills targeting transgender people. Now, her political career is over—at least for now. Mace made a calculated gambit to trade her congressional seat for the governor’s mansion, declining to file for reelection in SC-01. But despite spending two years remolding herself into one of Trump’s most visible culture warriors, Trump endorsed Lt. Gov. Pamela Evette instead. Without his backing, Mace finished fifth with 12%, not winning a single county in the state—including Charleston, which is her home county. She cannot return to her House seat: the filing deadline has passed. When her term ends in January 2027, Nancy Mace will hold no office. The woman who gave up a safe House seat to chase a promotion on the strength of an anti-trans brand she invented in 2024 will leave Washington with nothing to show for it. It is notable that the winners of the Republican primary are not much better on transgender issues—and one may be worse. Alan Wilson, who finished second and will advance to a June 23 runoff against Trump-backed Lt. Gov. Pamela Evette, was a leading state official in the landmark Supreme Court case in support of Tennessee’s gender-affirming care ban in United States v. Skrmetti, calling the ruling “a win for sanity and for the safety of our kids.” He also told the city of Columbia to overturn its conversion therapy ban. Evette, for her part, celebrated the Skrmetti decision as well, writing “Amen! Protecting our kids and America’s future generations is a non-negotiable.” Neither candidate, however, made anti-trans activism the theatrical centerpiece of their campaign the way Mace did. Mace built her entire political identity around targeting transgender people, gave up a safe congressional seat to ride that brand to the governor’s mansion, and it got her fifth place. As for McBride, she and countless transgender people have endured two years of Nancy Mace’s cruelty. Now, at least, trans staffers, journalists, and the nation’s first transgender congresswoman will no longer have to see Mace in the halls of the Capitol after her term ends in January 2027. And if Democrats retake the House in November, the bathroom restrictions Mace forced into place—her sole lasting act of spite—will likely be among the first things to go. Erin In The Morning is a reader-supported publication. To receive new posts and support my work, consider becoming a subscriber. From Erin In The Morning via This RSS Feed.
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In the aftermath of the floods, many NSW homes were significantly damaged and still lay in the path of future floods. In response, the NSW government introduced a buyback scheme for eligible homes in flood-prone areas. Part of this program involved demolishing homes, with the materials discarded in landfill or used for low-value recycling, such as woodchipping and burning. Yet the homes contained valuable materials, such as hardwood timbers. Losing these homes was traumatic for the local community and an unnecessary loss of valuable resources. So the NSW Reconstruction Authority, Living Lab Northern Rivers, and the University of Technology Sydney (UTS) explored how to recover a material that is extremely difficult to source today—old-growth timber. link to report https://llnr.cdn.prismic.io/llnr/aigBHQeQX7-eXCXA_LLNR_CircularTimberResearchReport_DIGITAL.pdf
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Community for the Akutsu-San manga Alternate titles: Please go home Akutsu san, Kaette Kudasai Akutsu San
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Information and discussion on gaining lean weight. A good comprehensive source of info is the Fitness Wiki Quick FAQs What should my diet look like? To gain weight, you need to eat more calories than you burn; the more calories you eat per day, the faster you put on weight. Eating this much food consistently, is difficult for almost everyone. Your diet should consist of food: food that fits your calorie and nutrient goals, food that you actually like to eat, food that is easy to prepare to eat food that you can afford The idea is to make it easy to eat enough every. single. day. Just like eating a lot won’t get you fit if you don’t also workout, if you don’t eat enough, you might as well not workout. When designing your diet/menu for the week, pick recipes that are tasty, varied, share ingredients, and use ingredients that are on sale. Food that can be meal prepped on Sunday to eat for the rest of the week is ideal. How much should I eat? Calories: The easiest way to find out many calories to eat is to use a TDEE calculator. Some iOS/Android apps, like MyFitnessPal and Cronometer can also calculate your TDEE and help you track and reach your calorie goal. To gain weight at a measureable pace, a good rule of thumb is to eat 10-25% more calories a day to your TDEE to start. The bigger your calorie surplus, the more weight you will gain, and after a certain point weight gained will be all fat, so more is not always better (but you do need to eat enough) Macros: For weight gain, your priority is to meet your protein goal, and fill the rest with carbs and fat. You should eat generally eat 0.8g of protein per lb of bodyweight. Note that not all proteins are created equal. Some are less bioavailable to humans, or have few amino acids, so you’ll need to eat more of it to achieve the same effect. Fiber (and/or vegetables) is important but usually overlooked since it doesn’t contain calories. To eat consistently, you want your digestion system working like clockwork - otherwise, you’ll find your appetite affected and it’ll be harder to eat consistently, which is the overall goal. The more consistently you eat, the more likely your lifestyle changes become habit. Micros: When tracking calories, review the previous week for a trend of lack of micronutrients To meet your micros, multivitamins are easy and won’t hurt. NOTE: Recalibrating TDEE - It’s important to readjust your caloric intake as your body gains/loses weight. The easiest way is to recalculate your TDEE for your new weight. A more precise method would be to use the nSuns Template, which adjusts your TDEE based on the rate of change of your own weight data. Bulking and Cutting Generally, most lifters are either bulking (trying to gain weight/muscle) or cutting (trying to lose weight/fat). To bulk, eat 1.1-1.25x your TDEE, and lift heavy high volume (lots of sets and reps). To cut, eat 0.75-1x your TDEE, but keeping the same amount of protein, optionally eating low carb, high fat diet. When you bulk and cut is up to you. A rule of thumb is to cut when body fat is at a certain percentage, like 25% for men, or 35% for women. To add: Mealtimes Meal Prep Recipes Supplements Protein What should I lift? Mental Motivating self to go to gym What should goals be Stretching Balance Strength standards Helpful tips (mason jars)
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"When asked whether there was a possibility of a conflict between Israel and Turkey, US President Donald Trump said: “Erdoğan is a very good friend of mine; I don’t think anything like that will happen with Turkey. He respects me, and I respect him.”
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It’s very hard to moderate a religion when everyone with a functional brain leaves… Which should be obvious, everytime someone leaves a church because it’s too extreme, it gets more extreme. It’s like how neoliberals coming to the Dem party made it shittier and got us modern Republicans.
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cross-posted from: https://lemmy.world/post/48009634 Today marks a week into my Lamotrigine titration following my BD2 dx. I’m writing this post because I don’t really have anyone* to talk to about my experience, both with the medications and my being dx’d in general. As far as I am aware, the amount I am taking (25mg for another week before 50mg for two weeks) is too low to have any therapeutic effect on me, and even if it wasn’t, it hasn’t been in my system long enough to do what it is meant to do yet. Some of the below info might be caused by other things, but I have never felt some of it before, and wanted to include everything for completeness sake. Side effects: Headache On days 2 and 3, I had a persistent headache that nothing touched. On day 3 it went completely away by 7pm. On days 4 and 5, I had no pain. Starting on day 6, I have a different kind of headache. It’s dull and I can ignore it inside, but outside in the 90+ degree heat, it throbs. It’s sort of in the back of my head where my neck and skull meet. Brain fog Starting on day 2, focus diminished significantly. It began as simple loss of words. The feeling that you can’t remember the right word, but it’s on the tip of your tongue. By day 4, I was functionally useless around home, but driving unaffected (thank spaghetti-god). For example, I received an alert from my TrueNAS box that the battery backup communication was lost (shakes fist at silly APC junk), which never resolves until I disconnect/reconnect the USB cable. I went into the basement, and by the time I was at the bottom of the stairs, I forgot why. I stood there a minute. My wife came down and chuckled at me. “Are you lost?” I was. I told her I forgot why I was down there. She chuckled again and told me, “Your server UPS thing was being dumb, remember?” I did. I turned and opened the door to the “server room” and shut it behind me. As soon as the door was shut, I forgot why I was there again. I messaged her on Signal. “I’m dumb and forgot again. Why am I here?” She lol’d and reminded me. Then she called me a minute later, only to find that I was seated in front of the TrueNAS box, consoled in and trying to remember what I was going to upgrade. “OMG! Are you for real? You already forgot again?” Yes. Yes I did. I stayed on the phone, unplugged the cable and plugged it back in. Problem solved. Mood: I don’t attribute this to Lamotrigine, but my dx. I am happy. I have been re-evaluating my life up to this point through the lens of bipolar disorder. Before my diagnosis, it was strange to think even a few months back and think, “Maybe that was my bipolar.” Now that I accept my diagnosis, there are things from my early teen years that stand out to me now. Heavy drug use, getting expelled from high school to trigger my mother’s “If you get expelled, you can’t live here.” rule. Sleeping with my friend’s GF in his bed. Poor life choices in general. I now realize that half of my relationships began during a period of hypomania. Every job I have ever held, I would suddenly start calling out around spring time (when my seasonal hypo arrives). So, while many of these things make me ashamed, I am happy knowing that it all fits my diagnosis. The other thing that I noticed just last night is that I have relaxed a lot. I stopped trying to filter everything I say, do, want, wear, etc. I have accepted my dx, and this is who I am. I am not done trying to be a better person. I need to always strive to be my best. But I am no longer ashamed of being hypo or depressed, or needing to sleep for 18 hours. I feel slightly liberated by this. I am not suddenly unfiltered and yelling, “Deal with it! I have bipolar, fuckers!!!” I just feel like it’s okay now, when I stand in a room shifting my weight from foot to foot with a blank mind. It’s okay if my mind is racing and I can’t explain myself. It’s okay if I said you can have my orange juice, but I forgot and asked you later why you drank it. I will still apologize, but I no longer feel like I am a bad person. My unfinished projects? I sure wish they were finished, but I’ll come back to them. I always do. But I have a lot more humor about my past experiences with the new, added context of my BD. Friends and Family: The response from my family and a few friends has left me somewhat jaded. I don’t think I will be volunteering to share my dx anymore. If I’m not explaining that BD isn’t schizophrenia, then I’m explaining that being hypo doesn’t mean I am suddenly delusional or psychotic. And even for my mother and older sister (the latter of which I believe has BD1), I …don’t know what I expected, but I was disappointed. That could be all me. In fact, it likely is. But “Wow. That’s big. I am glad you are getting treatment.” didn’t really feel how I hoped it would feel to tell them. Well, maybe from my N mom, but not my sister. She is usually so empathetic. Usually, when I share things with her, I get responses like, “That must feel ____. How are you holding up? I think if I were in your shoes, I would…” so this was out of character to me. My best friend told me he loved me and that we’d get together when he’s back in town. No worries there, but I still feel disinclined to share it with anyone. Why? I didn’t realize how people really don’t know what BD is. It seems that the media or just common misconception leads to most people assuming it is multiple personality disorder or they think it’s ultra-rapid cycling, going from full major depressive episode into full mania or hypomania in minutes, and back again. Even when they don’t have those mistaken assumptions, there’s still a persistent tone of, “You will be erratic and unpredictable.” I feel like they don’t trust me anymore. They act like my disorder began at dx last Wednesday. I’ve been this way for at least 29 years. The same guy who raised three kids who all have awesome attitudes and care for everybody in their lives. I’ve owned three homes with mortgages. I have a solid retirement saved up. No debt. No brushes with the law since 2006 (speeding ticket). I’ll have to do some work to correct these assumptions, and I will get to that. It’s just that for the next few months, I plan to focus on me as much as I can. I don’t have the resources to try to explain BD right now. I hope this doesn’t sound all doom and gloom. I am happy, but I know I tend to focus on the negative (that’s a family trait on my mother’s side). I am committed to staying on this treatment for the next several months in hopes of smoothing out my moods. This isn’t a post rationalizing why I won’t continue treatment. I’m happy to be treating my disorder. *Full disclosure, my wife has BD1 (diagnosed around 2001 – I forget which year), and she loves talking about my experience, but she also tends to discount things and give “advice” where I just want to discuss and get my thoughts out there. For that reason, I feel like she isn’t the ideal person for me to talk openly with. Some of the things I need to learn, I will have to learn on my own; I can’t just follow advice for every part of this experience.
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lemmy.world
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The USA as well. In these times, Europe must expand its independence and turn the US democratic again, ASAP. The sooner the Rust Belt in the US is reinvigorated and the cockroach nazi billionnaire elite is reduced to nothing (even preventing their fleeing of assets and themselves), the better outcomes will be for the US.
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Today marks a week into my Lamotrigine titration following my BD2 dx. I’m writing this post because I don’t really have anyone* to talk to about my experience, both with the medications and my being dx’d in general. As far as I am aware, the amount I am taking (25mg for another week before 50mg for two weeks) is too low to have any therapeutic effect on me, and even if it wasn’t, it hasn’t been in my system long enough to do what it is meant to do yet. Some of the below info might be caused by other things, but I have never felt some of it before, and wanted to include everything for completeness sake. Side effects: Headache On days 2 and 3, I had a persistent headache that nothing touched. On day 3 it went completely away by 7pm. On days 4 and 5, I had no pain. Starting on day 6, I have a different kind of headache. It’s dull and I can ignore it inside, but outside in the 90+ degree heat, it throbs. It’s sort of in the back of my head where my neck and skull meet. Brain fog Starting on day 2, focus diminished significantly. It began as simple loss of words. The feeling that you can’t remember the right word, but it’s on the tip of your tongue. By day 4, I was functionally useless around home, but driving unaffected (thank spaghetti-god). For example, I received an alert from my TrueNAS box that the battery backup communication was lost (shakes fist at silly APC junk), which never resolves until I disconnect/reconnect the USB cable. I went into the basement, and by the time I was at the bottom of the stairs, I forgot why. I stood there a minute. My wife came down and chuckled at me. “Are you lost?” I was. I told her I forgot why I was down there. She chuckled again and told me, “Your server UPS thing was being dumb, remember?” I did. I turned and opened the door to the “server room” and shut it behind me. As soon as the door was shut, I forgot why I was there again. I messaged her on Signal. “I’m dumb and forgot again. Why am I here?” She lol’d and reminded me. Then she called me a minute later, only to find that I was seated in front of the TrueNAS box, consoled in and trying to remember what I was going to upgrade. “OMG! Are you for real? You already forgot again?” Yes. Yes I did. I stayed on the phone, unplugged the cable and plugged it back in. Problem solved. Mood: I don’t attribute this to Lamotrigine, but my dx. I am happy. I have been re-evaluating my life up to this point through the lens of bipolar disorder. Before my diagnosis, it was strange to think even a few months back and think, “Maybe that was my bipolar.” Now that I accept my diagnosis, there are things from my early teen years that stand out to me now. Heavy drug use, getting expelled from high school to trigger my mother’s “If you get expelled, you can’t live here.” rule. Sleeping with my friend’s GF in his bed. Poor life choices in general. I now realize that half of my relationships began during a period of hypomania. Every job I have ever held, I would suddenly start calling out around spring time (when my seasonal hypo arrives). So, while many of these things make me ashamed, I am happy knowing that it all fits my diagnosis. The other thing that I noticed just last night is that I have relaxed a lot. I stopped trying to filter everything I say, do, want, wear, etc. I have accepted my dx, and this is who I am. I am not done trying to be a better person. I need to always strive to be my best. But I am no longer ashamed of being hypo or depressed, or needing to sleep for 18 hours. I feel slightly liberated by this. I am not suddenly unfiltered and yelling, “Deal with it! I have bipolar, fuckers!!!” I just feel like it’s okay now, when I stand in a room shifting my weight from foot to foot with a blank mind. It’s okay if my mind is racing and I can’t explain myself. It’s okay if I said you can have my orange juice, but I forgot and asked you later why you drank it. I will still apologize, but I no longer feel like I am a bad person. My unfinished projects? I sure wish they were finished, but I’ll come back to them. I always do. But I have a lot more humor about my past experiences with the new, added context of my BD. Friends and Family: The response from my family and a few friends has left me somewhat jaded. I don’t think I will be volunteering to share my dx anymore. If I’m not explaining that BD isn’t schizophrenia, then I’m explaining that being hypo doesn’t mean I am suddenly delusional or psychotic. And even for my mother and older sister (the latter of which I believe has BD1), I …don’t know what I expected, but I was disappointed. That could be all me. In fact, it likely is. But “Wow. That’s big. I am glad you are getting treatment.” didn’t really feel how I hoped it would feel to tell them. Well, maybe from my N mom, but not my sister. She is usually so empathetic. Usually, when I share things with her, I get responses like, “That must feel ____. How are you holding up? I think if I were in your shoes, I would…” so this was out of character to me. My best friend told me he loved me and that we’d get together when he’s back in town. No worries there, but I still feel disinclined to share it with anyone. Why? I didn’t realize how people really don’t know what BD is. It seems that the media or just common misconception leads to most people assuming it is multiple personality disorder or they think it’s ultra-rapid cycling, going from full major depressive episode into full mania or hypomania in minutes, and back again. Even when they don’t have those mistaken assumptions, there’s still a persistent tone of, “You will be erratic and unpredictable.” I feel like they don’t trust me anymore. They act like my disorder began at dx last Wednesday. I’ve been this way for at least 29 years. The same guy who raised three kids who all have awesome attitudes and care for everybody in their lives. I’ve owned three homes with mortgages. I have a solid retirement saved up. No debt. No brushes with the law since 2006 (speeding ticket). I’ll have to do some work to correct these assumptions, and I will get to that. It’s just that for the next few months, I plan to focus on me as much as I can. I don’t have the resources to try to explain BD right now. I hope this doesn’t sound all doom and gloom. I am happy, but I know I tend to focus on the negative (that’s a family trait on my mother’s side). I am committed to staying on this treatment for the next several months in hopes of smoothing out my moods. This isn’t a post rationalizing why I won’t continue treatment. I’m happy to be treating my disorder. *Full disclosure, my wife has BD1 (diagnosed around 2001 – I forget which year), and she loves talking about my experience, but she also tends to discount things and give “advice” where I just want to discuss and get my thoughts out there. For that reason, I feel like she isn’t the ideal person for me to talk openly with. Some of the things I need to learn, I will have to learn on my own; I can’t just follow advice for every part of this experience.
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Yeah. And if your landlord is a slumlord or is trying to kick everyone out, they aren’t going to care about the maintenance of other units.